Cancer Patient Gets Liver Pain Under Control & Tummy Cancer Goes Wild

Finally,  pain I can say that was WORSE than child birth!  SERIOUSLY.  The only difference...I didn't deliver any of the cancer.  It's all still inside of me. What a bad deal!! 12:31 am yesterday morning.  I'm uncomfortable.  I get out of bed, go to the kitchen for some water.  I came back to my room and used the potty.  I turned the light on, paced the floor for oh I don't know a few minutes, and at 12:37 am all hell broke loose in my tummy.  Before you ask, YES I took an Oxycontin at 10:30 pm.  It obviously wasn't working!!!!!!!  I tossed my cookies.  I sat on the edge of my bed rocking back and forth convincing myself the pain was going to subside.  It didn't.  I screamed for my mother three times.  In her nightie, obviously startled she came into my room trying to figure out what was wrong with me.  All I managed to get out was "it hurts, it hurts...it's never going to stop."  Trust me, I believed that.  I don't know why I insist on rocking back and forth when it's painful BUT I do it. Mom sat right next to me, rubbing my back while I sobbed and told her I just couldn't do "this" anymore. Scary words to say...worse when you actually feel like it's true.  I called my sister at 1:41 am.  She's usually excellent at calming me. The pain was too much though and I could barely concentrate on what she was saying to me.  Mom kept taking the phone, updating Pamela and handing it back to me.  Pain wasn't going away.  Neither was my sobbing.  Peppermint tea!!  That always seem to calm my tummy some.  Mom went to brew it.  The pain still wasn't subsiding.  I knew I was going to die.  I hung up with Pam, and Mom came back with a cup of tea.  She again sat right next to me and I laid my head on her shoulder and just let it all go.  Uncontrollable tears. I sipped the tea and Mom convinced me to take a half a Percocet even though it wasn't time.  I did.  She propped pillows up on the bed, put my legs under the covers and made sure I was sitting up as "comfortable" as I couldbe.  More tea.  Less rocking back and forth. Still sobbing. The pillows felt good behind me and at 2:07 am the meds put the cancer to sleep for the night.  Shortly after, I was asleep too.

Those tummy "sessions" used to only last twenty minutes or so.  That one stayed from 12:37 am to 2:07 am.  Believe me when I tell you, I don't want to "do" that again and I don't know if I could.

I told Mom, if that continues to happen....she needs to shoot me because I am not willing to live like that.  It just isn't living!

The ultra sound on my breast and mammogram is tomorrow at 1:45 pm.  Mom is taking me since I can't drive doped up!

It's way after bed time.  I have to tuck in. 

I love y'all!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxox

Please say prayers for my parents . They "watch" me every single day. They do anything and everything they can to make my life easier and comfortable.  Even when I'm at my worst, they still love  me and laugh with me.

Please say prayers for my sister who feels helpless when I make those "after hour" calls.  She never says so, but I can only imagine if I were in her shoes how badly I'd want to rescue her.  She's my sister...."without her I don't make sense"!!!!!!!!!!

 

*** Please say prayers for Nathan (He is starting chemo and radiation again.), Ms Bobby (she started radiation), Mr. Russo, Ms Pammy (recovering from surgery.), Lenore ~ she's having a reoccurrence in her lungs, Trish, David Carey, Sugar, Cindy (She's in remission),Tammy (she's in remission) and Jeannette. They are fighting the battle with cancer too .

*** Please say prayers for Jay Carey and his family.  He is in Iraq.

 

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entry on 11-15-06 to read about the title MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

 

 

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