Memorial

Friends,

You have humbled and amazed me and my family with all your comments.  There are no words to express the gratitude we feel for all your well wishes and prayers. Thank you. 

My mom asked me to write.  She wanted you all to know that Rene had a beautiful memorial.  Yesterday was a difficult day, but we had a wonderful tribute to my sister.  The room was filled with people who laughed and cried as we remembered  her. 

Rene touched so many lives.  I pray for each one of you that through my sister's life and death you have had a life altering experience.  Don't take anything for granted.  Life is precious and short.  Love the good times and learn from the bad.  Be a blessing to those around you and you will feel blessed.

May you always feel the love of God.  He has a perfect plan for us all.

With much love and gratitude,
Pamela

The Breakfast Table

Just under an hour ago my dear sister got her angel wings.  She is sitting at the breakfast table knowing we will be there shortly.  Our time here is so temporary.  Please pray for our family.

Be blessed,
Pamela

Rene

It's me, Pamela.  Please lift my sister up in prayer.  Rene was admitted to the hospital today.  She was suffering from horrific headaches and vomiting and taken to the hospital in an ambulance.  She is bleeding into her brain.  Rene is on morphine and heavily sedated.  She is physically feeling very little.  Her pulse is strong, her blood pressure is high, and she is breathing on her own.  My parents are by her side.  At this point it seems that medically there is nothing that can be done.   PRAY, PRAY, PRAY.  I know God is capable of miracles.

Be blessed,
Pamela

Hello!

My sister is fabulous, isn't she?

OK--here's the deal. I'm at home. (There's alot to be said for begging your doctor not to keep you!!) No results on the scans yet.  The way I figure, no news is good news.  As you know, PT/INR is 7.4.  I'm on house arrest until further notice.  No driving, no running around.

Thank you for all the prayers and comments.  As soon as the doc calls, I'll let you know what's going on!

I sure do love y'all!  Good night.

Update on Rene

Hello everyone! For those of you who don't know me, I'm Pamela, Rene's sister.  For those of you who do know me, don't worry!!

Rene knew you would all be wondering what was happening, so she asked me to do a quick post.

Rene's appointment was moved up to 2:45PM.  She's still there. Her PT/INR is 7.4.  The PT/INR is a measure of her blood clotting time.  Average time varies, but is around 2.5-3.5.  The higher the number, the slower your clotting ability.  Needless to say, with a number like 7.4 it's best to stay close to the hospital.  Please keep in mind, I have no medical training, I'm just doing my best to explain it the way I understand.

The docs are also doing scans of Rene's liver and gall bladder.  They haven't decided yet if they are admitting her.  I'll let you know when I hear something.

For now, please pray that the docs make good, informed decisions about how to proceed.  Pray for Rene and her acceptance of the "doctor's orders."  Mostly, pray for her healing and for her to feel the presence of our loving and  comforting God.

More later,
Pamela

Oh Fudge!

My blood is still way too thin and the doctors don't know why.  My appointment tomorrow is at 4:00pm.  If there is no improvement...I'm getting admitted to the hospital.  

FUDGE---I hate when that happens!  

 

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It's All Good

Thank you for all the heart warming,  supportive comments (and compliments)!  I am blessed and so very grateful for the inspiration to write.

I met Joey Lee today.  She's a nurse that educates cancer patients on the fun of radiation.  :)  I learned more then I knew, and was even able to come home and explain everything to Mom and Dad. 

My PT/INR is 6.  Houston, we have a problem.  Funny thing is, they don't know what it is!!  Seems to be my heart is having issues again.  I'm still off of the Coumadin.  I get to see Ms Val tomorrow for blood work again--Wednesday, my oncologist and cardiologist.  You should see all the places they stuck me with needles . Ahhhh the beauty of bruises!

I spoke with a friend who I met years ago at a wedding.  It seemed too long since we talked and even hours after we were catching up, there was still more to say.  Priceless. 

I'm 35 years old and live with my parents.  I have cancer, diabetes and a heart condition the doctors still can't figure out.  I have a sister who has never given up on me, friends that continually support me and great faith in God that didn't exist until I "got sick".  Look at me any way you choose to. No matter what you say, I promise you life is oh so good.

 I love y'all.  Thank you for taking this journey with me.  Good Night.

 

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Lots To Say

There are times when you give up.  When you feel like you've had enough and don't think you can go on.  There are moments when you're positive it doesn't get worse, that no one else has ever felt this way and that it happens to only you.  You wonder what if life were different, if you did something to deserve what is going on and if something brilliant could change it all now.  Then there are moments you remember pride never saved a life, crying often releases the sadness and it could actually be far worse than it is.  You begin to let the sun in again and realize what is actually important and there truly is a reason for your life, as it is and who you have become.

Today, I am grateful for my parents who when I was growing up, didn't think Jordache jeans were a necessity.  I'm grateful for a sister who was so concerned about my health she was afraid to tell me my outfit didn't match (we were in grade school).  I am grateful for a grandmother who lived to be 98 and died knowing how loved she was, but it was time for her to go "home".  I am grateful for a love that came around a second time--giving me a chance for something I never imagined could ever be so perfect. I am grateful for friendships that remain patient and supportive--who understand even the moments when I am impossible. I am grateful for a tiny life that lasted nine months, that taught me things can change in an instant.  I am grateful for my cancer, as it is a constant reminder miracles exist, statistics don't mean everything and attitude is more then half the battle.

A good friend of mine sent me this link. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=8577255250907450469  The video is about 12 minutes.  It's heart warming and heart breaking in a sense.  Grab some tissues and watch it and then make sure you pass it on.

I'm not perfect.  I don't always get "it"...the first time, second or even third.  I try, but I am still learning and I don't regret that one bit!

  

Before I tuck in--MN and Pamela, we did have heart shaped hamburgers!!!!!!!!!!!

I love y'all.  Count your blessings.  Good Night.

 

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Happy Valentine's Day

             

Happy Valentine's Day!  Aren't my flowers beautiful??  Dad always gives me my favorite, Gerber daisies!

I'm still not feeling great and I'm not keeping any food down.

I hope today was a joyful day.  I'll write more tomorrow. 

Love and blessings to y'all.

Blue

From 10:00 am to about 3:30 pm I drove back and forth between blood work, my oncologist and cardiologist.  When I came back home I napped for a little while.  Mom called me for dinner around 7:00 pm. I woke with a brutal headache and after eating yummy enchiladas my tummy decided it really wasn't all that tasty.  I'm drinking my tea.  I've taken all the meds I can.  I know it could be far worse, but I'm not too happy and feeling a little blue.

                     

Sorry it's short.  I'm about through with today.  I love y'all.

Happy Birthday Michelle!  I miss and love you!!!!!!!!

Please say prayers for Mary Nell and family and for my Michelle too.

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Now

You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. You can decide how you're going to live--now.

            Joan Baez

Laughter Is The Best Medicine

                  

*This Story Is Copied from The Cancer Crusade

Lighten up, people! This is for all those who think it's somehow unseemly, even downright inappropriate to laugh with those of us who have cancer.

My husband was helping me up the driveway to our house after a miserable day at the hospital that had started at 4:30 that morning. Our two teenaged sons ran out to meet us and to help.

As the three of them fussed over me, I stopped in my tracks, waved a hand in the air and said,
"I think I'm going to be sick."

Instantly, I felt three strong pairs of hands on my arms and shoulders, supporting me, holding me, guiding me to the side of the driveway. As sick as I was, the thought crossed my mind that, in spite of everything I was going through on this journey called cancer, I was the luckiest woman alive to have these three caring, compassionate men to love and support me
through it all.

As their hands continued to turn me toward the flower bed, my younger son said gently,
"Not on my Mustang, Mom."

Take it from me, it is possible to throw up and laugh at the same time. It's not pretty, but it's possible.

Just a little reminder that there is beauty even in life's least beautiful moments, tenderness in the toughest of times, and humor even in illness. We just have to look for these little blessings, make ourselves open to receving them, and cherish them when we find them.

Feeling run down today and a little warm.  I have a bit of a fever. I'm sure it's nothing to worry about. 

I have lots of emails to respond to and a few calls to return also.

Back to see my oncologist tomorrow.  I'm tucking in now.  I love y'all.  Thanks for reading.

Safe traveling Bob and Suzy!!

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Poked and Prodded

                                      

I'm starting to feel like that poor little dough boy!! Poked and prodded some more today.  Results on Monday.  Blood is still too thin. PT/INR   Click here: Prothrombin time - is 5.  I'm off the Coumadin (temporarily), which scares me since I am prone to clots in my lungs. Any bleeding right now, sends me to the emergency room per the docs.  Oh joy!

Someone is setting off fireworks.  It's been going on for at least the last hour.  I'd love to know what the occassion is.  What am I thinking?? This is the South.  There probably isn't an occassion!  Ha ha.  :)

Picked up Chinese for dinner.  It was good going down.... that's all I'll say about that.

For anyone reading that has ever had radiation therapy/treatment--tell me about it, please.  Anything and everything.  You can leave it in my comments or email me directly.  alwaysireneann@aol.com

Tucking in early tonight.  I didn't sleep restfully last night.

I love y'all.

 

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Decisions

I'm really trying to be better about phone calls.  I'm certain some of you will verify that, right???!

I saw my oncologist on Thursday.  Instead of detailing the appointment, I'll simply tell you I've decided I'm going to do radiation. There are a few issues that have to be taken care of first.  BUT, I'm ready for him to zap me.  I think.  :)

             

I'm having quite a tough time with food and pain.  It's routine now, when Mom hears me getting sick--peppermint tea and toast.  This morning I was so drugged when she finally came in with the tea, I fell asleep with the mug in my hand.  Yea, I know...not so safe or smart!

Big birthday wishes to my Dad and cousin, Marsha.  We celebrated with Dad's favorite.  Hamburgers!  For dessert?!  An ice cream cake with dark chocolate (compliments of Dove), whipped cream and cherries.  Ohhh and let me not forget, the singing candle!  Can't go wrong with that, right??

I'm tucking in now.  I love y'all.

 

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Nice Matters

 

                                      

 

When I started my journal, I did so to keep my family and friends up to date on what was going in my world.  Along this journey, I've "found" friends, supporters, survivors and other journal writers. Trish is all of the above. Her journal http://journals.aol.com/gosso23/my-breast-cancer-story/  was the first I had read here in AOL land.  I immediately found comfort in her words and could relate to much of what she was saying.  So, I cannot tell you how touched I am to be nominated (by her) for the Nice Matters Award.

 

Trish your kindness and support is a blessing to me.  I appreciate you and your journal.

 

With that said, here are my picks for the Nice Matters Award. 

 

Dawn -- Carpe Diem - Seize The Day http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/ Just the name of her journal should be reason enough for reading it! Dawn continually sends me blessings and inspiration despite her own battles in life with an inoperable brain tumor, Lupus and  Rheumatoid Arthritis.

 

 

Krissy -- Sometimes I Think

http://journals.aol.com/fisherkristina/SometimesIThink

Full of spirit and optimism. Krissy is generous with her words and prayers, no matter what is happening in her life. She is clearly an outstanding friend, sister and wife.  Her husband John is a cancer survivor.

 

 

Guido -- Northern Trip

http://journals.aol.co.uk/pharmolo/NorthernTrip

I'm positive he knows something about everything.  Not only that, Guido is caring and has a way of looking out for others. He ALWAYS says "it" like is.  I appreciate that in a person.

 

 

Cindy -- Cindy's Life

http://journals.aol.com/emabecmar/CindysLife/

Quoting her words "My outlook on life is better now since I've been diagnosed with cancer".  That simply says it all!

 

Indigo -- Raven's Lament

http://journals.aol.com/rdautumnsage/ravens-lament/

Eclectic. Warm. Wise. Thoughtful. Spiritual.

 

 

I sure do love y'all!

 

A Secret

If there is any secret to this life I live, this is it: the sound of what cannot be seen sings within everything that can. And there is nothing more to it than that.

Brian Andreas

No Results

                             

I'm feeling a little better today.  Thank you for all the thoughts and prayers.  PET scan and ultra sound results on Tuesday.  I'm not bothered by the waiting...I'm used to it by now!!

Not feeling much for words tonight. So, I'm tucking in.

Please say prayers for my cousin, Rachel (FC).  She's taking the LSAT tomorrow. 

Good night.

 

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Short And Sweet

I woke up to some really terrible pain this morning.  I've been "drugged" and tucked into bed all day and food is not my friend. I spoke to my oncologist, and postponed the tests until tomorrow at 2:10 pm.

I love y'all.  Thanks for continuing this journey with me.

 

News For The Day

                                  

Thank you to everyone that sent me emails regarding my pain meds.  I GREATLY appreciate it!  I saw another oncologist today (mine was not in the office) who was fabulous. For now, I am going to switch pain meds, and if those do not "cut it" for me.  WE will revaluate and than decide what to do next.  My blood work came back showing poor kidney function.  Not great news considering the possibility that the cancer might have spread.  I had more blood taken for a serum creatinine test. This will show if I am in kidney failure.  Thursday I'll have a full body scan and an abdominal ultrasound to look at my kidneys.  Fun, fun, fun!

I was fortunate enough to recieve a phone call from a friend of mine in Maryland who asked me if another friend of mine had moved closer to where he lives.  I responded yes, he then tells me he thinks he is shopping right next to her.  Long story short, he makes certain it is her, gives her his cell phone so I can say hello...and ALAS we have "found" each other after five years!  I cannot even begin to tell you haw grateful I am.  We have much catching up to do. We've already started by exchanging pictures and "stories".  Let me tell ya, five years makes a huge difference in growing kids.  Her girls are teenagers now.  Her oldest will have a driver's license soon!  YIKES.  I'm old.  Ha ha.  :) 

American Idol will be on soon...and well I'm an American Idol junkie so I gotta go!  Don't forget to count your blessings and the crossroads you come upon.Sometimes all it takes is a baby step forward to make a huge difference in your life. "G", I am very proud of you!!

I sure do love y'all!

 

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Update

I admit it.  I'm like a mouse in a corner when I don't feel good.  I just want to be left alone.

I know a few of you have left several messages and sent emails.  I'm really not a bad friend or cousin (FC!).  REALLY. "That's" just what I do when I'm feeling sad or overwhelmed or all of the above.

Did you know Oxycontin consists partially of one of the same chemicals in heroin??  Yup, sure does.  I'm not taking it anymore.  I am going back to Loritab and Vicodin.  Yes, I know some of you will argue the Vicodin can be habit forming.  I realize this, BUT it isn't heroin based.  YIKES.

Mom and I threw down some crab legs the other night.  I haven't done that in quite awhile.  YUMMY. Although,  I paid for it in the morning. My tummy wasn't so happy with me.  My oncologist told me to eat what I can...just keep it down.  Grapes and PBJ seem to work well.  Speaking of PBJ, what are some of YOUR comfort foods????

I have a phone date with Stephen very shortly.  There 's a PBA tournament on.  His favorite bowler is in it.

Movies to rent: Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, Thank You For Smoking and Invincible.

More later....maybe.  I love y'all. 

 

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Seriously...

How many Phenergan does it take to make a cancer patient stop vomiting??  If I knew the answer...I assure you I'd be feeling much better.  ARGH!!!!! This is pathetic.

Happy Bunny Says It All...

                

Yea, basically that's what I feel like right now. I'm grumpy.  I'm not holding any food down.  My tummy and back hurt. Sigh. I'm not letting cancer get the best of me...REALLY. Sometimes it just sucks.

Gratefuls:

1) My parents tolerate and love me.

2) Meds

3) Fluffy pillows

4) A sense of humor.

5) My doggie.

 

I love y'all. Good Night.

Whatta Weekend

Uncle Gravy and Dad battled over the dinner tab Friday night.  Big surprise!  Dad won.  Uncle Gravy paid the time after.  This is a never ending "argument" between Felkoff and Friedman!!  Gotta love it!

Uncle Gravy and Aunt Arlene (Uncle Gravy's sister) arrived Friday afternoon, on their drive back from Florida.  It was wonderful!!!!!!  It's never quite enough time together though!

Saturday, the weather was yucky.  Just cold and icy.  I wasn't feeling great BUT there was a Girl Scout outting, so ya know I couldn't miss it!  We went to an assisted living complex to play bingo.  Well actually, to help play bingo.  It was such a blessing.  You could tell the folks were touched, and really enjoyed us.  It was very humbling.  I hope for the girls it was too.  It's amazing how something so simple can touch someone else.  Even if it is a touch on the hand.

             

I took the picture (sorry it was with my camera phone) above when I was leaving the new house today.  Is that hilarious????????????????  Do you see any snow or ice on the grass??!!!!  Oh my goodness.  People here just freak out if the weather calls for snow or ice.  It is comical!!!!! (DO you think they know there is a spelling error???!!)

There was an open house at the old house today.  So, we spent time at the new house.  It was cozy and extremely pleasant.  Even the doggie enjoyed the sun that was shinning in through the windows.  Oh how couldn't she!!  Don't ya love falling asleep or sitting in a ray of sunshine ??!!!

I'm done for the night.  I'm exhausted and my cough is irritating me....STILL! I'm going to finish watching the game and tuck into my snuggly bed.  I hope the weekend was good to you, and you are counting all your blessings.  Travel safely Uncle Gravy!!!

I love y'all.

 

Please say prayers for: Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

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Boxes, Cookies and a Lesson

I went into the garage earlier today, (we're still in the old house) to get a bottle of ginger ale.  I chuckled noticing how many boxes remain there.  These boxes aren't packed for this upcoming move.  They are STILL packed from the transition from Maryland to South Carolina.  WE knew we wouldn't be in this house forever, so we didn't unpack completely.  Now, speaking for myself when I arrived in South Carolina I unpacked my computer, some books, my entire angel collection and all my beauty and toiletry items.  There are still at least 15 boxes in the garage labeled and taped that are mine.  That stuff has  been sitting in there for two years and I haven't wanted or needed any of it.  Is there a lesson in there somewhere??  Something about the simplicity of life and what's really important.  Sure, in many of those boxes are things I've wanted, gifts, trinkets etc.  But nothing that makes or breaks me.  Nothing I've even wondered about. Isn't it amazing how much worth we often put into the materialistic possessions in our lives??  When really our true worth as people should be the love and generosity we give selflessly, the relationships we share, the lessons we've learned and the gratitude we show God...and not necessarily in that order!!?? I can't lie.  I'm eager to unpack all of my boxes.  I'm just grateful that I don't have to break down the boxes and rip off all the tape (again) to find my true treasures and valuables in life.

If you haven't seen Stranger Than Fiction, watch it.  If you have seen it, and didn't "get it", I implore you to watch it again.  Lastly, eat a home made cookie with a glass of milk.  ok???

I love y'all.

                            

Please say prayers for: Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew. 

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Sleepy Day

                      

I had a very important job this morning.  I had to doggie sit.  Julie's dog, Lucky "spilled" out of her truck yesterday and was rushed to the vet. Lucky is all of 5 lbs, so a tumble out of just about anywhere, is not good. Today, he needed some extra TLC and watching over just to make certain he was recovering ok. 

The remainder of the day, I slept.  Yep, all day.  Other than dinner and watching part of American Idol.  Sadly, I still feel exhausted.

I hope today found you embracing a new adventure or an old one you are passionate about.  Remember life is short, don't hesitate living it.

I love y'all.

 

PS ~ To all those asking - YES! I deleted my profile on MySpace. 

 

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Main Entry: god·send
Function: noun
Pronunciation: 'gäd-"send also 'go d-
Etymology: back-formation from god-sent
: a desirable or needed thing or event that comes unexpectedly

I was called a "godsend" today.  It sort of made me chuckle because if you read that definition above...I'm not exactly that. I do however understand the sentiment behind it. It's quite nice to be held in such high regard.  Even though, I'm just me...because  I assure you, sometimes I am rotten.  BUT, I needed that "boost" today.  I've been feeling somber.

So, what is something godsend to you??  A hot cup of tea from a friend on a cold morning? ? Someone sharing their "space" underneath an umbrella??  A hug from a familiar face after a very long day?

                   

Mom and Dad are at the new house almost everyday "doing"...yes "doing".  There's progress...but we aren't moved yet.  There will be lots of pictures once it happens.  I promise.

We've spent a couple of late evenings watching movies on recommendation from my favorite movie critic, Stephen.  Swimming With Sharks Swimming with Sharks (1994)   was good.  Yes, it is an older flick.  Spun, I watched alone.  It's a brutal movie about addiction...so if you are looking for laughter and romance...this isn't the film!  In queue, Stranger Than Fiction, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang and Invincible.

Food hasn't been fun. We keep hoping ginger ale will do the trick!  If only that was the cure!!   Pain hasbeen under control for the most part. I'm taking the oxy exactly as it's being prescribed.  I've been trying to take walks around the block.  Mom asks me if it feels good to get out and walk.  It does, REALLY...even if the tumor in my back nags me.  The coughing is the same.  I've noticed lots of bruising on my legs, thighs, and tummy.  I don't know if it is from the Coumadin or lack of potassium.  I'm going to see the doc this week for blood work to figure it out.

I'm going to close this for now. Thanks for coming here and reading.  I sure do love y'all.

 

Please say prayers for: *Nathan ~ continuing to do chemo and fight the battle. *Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill ~ he is battling ALS and her mom, Pam too. *Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby ~ she is being treated with radiation. * Mr. Russo ~ continuing to win the battle. *Ms Pammy ~ recovering from surgery and winning the battle. *Cindy ~ she's in remission!! *Tammy she's in remission!!  *Momma Joyce ~ she's been diagnosed with skin cancer. *Ms Margie ~ she is winning her battle with breast cancer.  *Krissy's husband, John who continues to win the battle. *Trish ~ she is continuing to win her battle with breast cancer. *Sugar ~ she is continuing to win her battle with cancer. *Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene ~ They are beginning a new battle, his cancer has spread. *Jay Carey and his family. He is in Iraq fighting the war.*Frances and her son, Matthew.  He is in Afghanistan. *Julie and Jon.

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entry on 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!

 

 

 

 

 

Pedialyte, again???!!!!!

Arrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhh.  Day three...my tummy hates everything.  Tossing cookies sucks.  So does Pedialyte.  I'll write more later, maybe.

Sunday, Sunday

Both my Aunt Tania and Uncle Don (THANK YOU!!!) sent me the link for that clinical trial I've been talking about.  I'm not certain I will qualify for it.  Actually, I don't think I will.  However, I am going to email the doctor with my questions and take it from there. 

For those of you that don't know...I decided to stop treatment, quite some time ago.  I wasn't giving up on my fight.  I simply wanted the quality of my life back.  Chemo was brutal and it took a huge toll on me in every aspect. There are days I don't even remember Mom coming over to feed me and do the "chores" around my house.  I figured if I was going to die...I was dying while enjoying my life.  Not with my head in the toilet.   Not such a bad decision considering I'm still alive!!!!!!!  :)

Hello and welcome to my new readers and friends!  I appreciate all the comments!  Thank you for taking the time to share my journey with me. If you have a journal, PLEASE send me the link so I can add it to mine.  :)

 

Mom and I sat in the kitchen and talked for awhile yesterday night.  We may not always see eye to eye on everything.  We may argue every so often BUT my Momma is the best.  We have this amazing "say anything" relationship.  I am grateful for that and her.  Trust me when I tell you, (and she could tell you too!) there was a time when we couldn't talk about anything without it being a knock down, drag out battle.  Thank God for growing up and for change.

 

I heard my niece did awesomeat her riding competition today and that my nephew rocked at his gymnastics meet.  I'll give y'all details after I talk to my sister tomorrow.  Again, I am such a proud aunt.

 

Five gratefuls for the day:

1) A warm blanket to snuggle with.

2) Hearing "I love you".

3) Music

4) The washing machine.

5)  My doggie.

 

I'm going to finish this up now.  Meds have long since kicked in and I am totally loopy.  Count your blessing before you tuck in and don't forget I love y'all.

 

Please say prayers for: *Nathan ~ continuing to do chemo and fight the battle. *Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill ~ he is battling ALS and her mom, Pam too. *Ms Bobby ~ she is being treated with radiation. * Mr. Russo ~ continuing to win the battle. *Ms Pammy ~ recovering from surgery and winning the battle. *Cindy ~ she's in remission!! *Tammy she's in remission!!  *Momma Joyce ~ she's been diagnosed with skin cancer. *Ms Margie ~ she is winning her battle with breast cancer.  *Krissy's husband, John who continues to win the battle. *Trish ~ she is continuing to win her battle with breast cancer. *Sugar ~ she is continuing to win her battle with cancer. *Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene ~ They are beginning a new battle, his cancer has spread. *Jay Carey and his family. He is in Iraq fighting the war.*Frances and her son, Matthew.  He is in Afghanistan. *Julie and Jon.

If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entry on 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!