There are times when you give up. When you feel like you've had enough and don't think you can go on. There are moments when you're positive it doesn't get worse, that no one else has ever felt this way and that it happens to only you. You wonder what if life were different, if you did something to deserve what is going on and if something brilliant could change it all now. Then there are moments you remember pride never saved a life, crying often releases the sadness and it could actually be far worse than it is. You begin to let the sun in again and realize what is actually important and there truly is a reason for your life, as it is and who you have become.
Today, I am grateful for my parents who when I was growing up, didn't think Jordache jeans were a necessity. I'm grateful for a sister who was so concerned about my health she was afraid to tell me my outfit didn't match (we were in grade school). I am grateful for a grandmother who lived to be 98 and died knowing how loved she was, but it was time for her to go "home". I am grateful for a love that came around a second time--giving me a chance for something I never imagined could ever be so perfect. I am grateful for friendships that remain patient and supportive--who understand even the moments when I am impossible. I am grateful for a tiny life that lasted nine months, that taught me things can change in an instant. I am grateful for my cancer, as it is a constant reminder miracles exist, statistics don't mean everything and attitude is more then half the battle.
A good friend of mine sent me this link. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=8577255250907450469 The video is about 12 minutes. It's heart warming and heart breaking in a sense. Grab some tissues and watch it and then make sure you pass it on.
I'm not perfect. I don't always get "it"...the first time, second or even third. I try, but I am still learning and I don't regret that one bit!
Before I tuck in--MN and Pamela, we did have heart shaped hamburgers!!!!!!!!!!!
I love y'all. Count your blessings. Good Night.
Please say prayers for: Dawn Brown*Sherry and family*Chris Read *Nathan *Cassie and family*Ms Dawn *Cathy's dad, Bill and her mom, Pam*Lisa and her family *Ms Bobby * Mr. Russo*Ms Pammy *Cindy*Tammy*Momma Joyce*MsMargie*Krissy's husband,John*Trish*Sugar*Mr. Carey and his wife, Irene*Jay Carey and his family.*Frances and her son, Matthew.
If this is your first time reading my journal, PLEASE go back to my first entryon 11-15-06 to read about the title, MEET ME AT THE BREAKFAST TABLE!! Thanks!